Why December sucks but leads into renewal

 For me 2025 has been in my top 4 worst times of my life. 

Between The United States election and bad decision making on who our leaders should be (rise of Nazi-like fascism in the republican party). Our citizens voting a smoke and mirrors, snake oil salesman and felon, who hung out with the likes of Jeffrey Epstein(Mr Trump) back into office. From SCOTUS no longer being something I trust. To eroding Civil Rights, to AI and corporate greed. To the rich (zuckerberg, bezos, musk, trump family) and many 1% rich avoiding paying any income taxes completely because of our tax laws favor the rich. To the news media becoming a monopoly(see my other posts on this). To many of our leadership in congress and the senate being polarized and NOT acting with moral and ethical integrity towards all our people. 

To daylight savings time...which IMO needs to go.  To long dark, cold nights. To all my personal life challenges. To my ex and I deciding to divorce one day after xmas last year. December is just rough. And 2025 was literally a year of divorce, separating "stuff" and grieving loss.

 December also sucks because it is a very commercially driven holiday. Marketing and media driven brain washing frenzy of .....buy...buy...eat...drink...buy some more month of the year. and then lands in January which is bleak, cold and depressing. 

December is in the quarter of death and dying. 

So whats this "leads into renewal" comment?

The earth goes in a circle, or cycles and winter leads to spring which is renewal, a new hope, new possibilities, growth! For me 2026 is the year of super growth and real rebirth for me, cause 2025 was the year of healing from a failed marriage. AND....I have been transitioning and living authentically. I will have had my first Gender affirming surgery in December and going into 2026 I will be more my self more aligned body and mind. I have many plans lined up for 2026 and 2026 brings me closer to those plans being realized.  I'm excited because of this. AND...I don't have to answer to anyone but myself...IT IS SO REFRESHING and honestly I can be myself without hiding or being diminished. 

So...  2026 will be a year where I am the captain of my boat, no one else deciding anything for me, nobody diminishing me, no one limiting my potential, and I'm really looking forward to it. 

HaaaZAAAH and all that! 

 

 

 

 

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